Sunday, March 11, 2012
So I have gone over this post in my thoughts time and time again. And I have rewritten it in my head every time something has changed in our adoption process. But it has come to a point where I need to share the yucky stuff that we have been going through as of late because we are in need of prayer from friends and family. We need you to go into battle on our behalf! We have now come to a point in our adoption where we are having to make some tough decisions. I can't go into specifics at the moment, believe me I WILL write that post some day, but we have basically been told by certain people that it is hopeless. That Sergey will ruin our family, that he has no value, he is medically unadoptable and that the judge would never allow a family of our size to adopt him. Can you imagine hearing that about your child?! Our hearts have felt like they have exploded in our chests over and over again in the last few weeks. Now we have not been denied this adoption, so there is still hope! There have been so many tears shed over this, we have sought wise counsel and we have prayed like never before asking God to make it clear to us what we are to do. We have narrowed it down to two options. One being that we donate all the money that we have raised to Sergey's Reece's Rainbow account and hope and pray that a family will come to his rescue or we move forward and hope and pray that God will soften this judge's heart to our family. That she will see how much we love him and want to make him a part of our family. I believe with all my heart that my God is a God of miracles even in this day and age. I have seen it time and time again in my life and others' and we know without a doubt that we have been called to adopt. Our hearts are forever connected to Sergey's and in our minds whether he is ever ours or not he will forever be a Farley! We have had to ask ourselves if this is God closing a door or asking us to continue to trust in Him And the more we talk and pray about it we know without a doubt that we have to keep going. We could never be at peace if we didn't try and do everything we could possibly do. We don't want to ever have regrets, I need to hear it from the judge herself. Not "possibly" or "she may" deny us from other people but a "no" from the judge's lips. So we are moving forward and praying like crazy that we get a "YES!", it can happen people I believe it with all my heart. And if we are denied then at least we can know that we tried everything, that we were being obedient to what we felt we were being called to. This is probably the scariest thing we have ever had to go through. Not just for us but for Sergey, we are fighting to save a human life, our son's life. If the judge feels like his medical issues are to extreme she may deny anyone from ever adopting him and if that happens his future is very bleak. I believe I have made it very clear what happens to these children if they are not adopted. I get so sick to my stomach when I let my thoughts even go there. I hope I have not shared more than what was needed but I hope this has helped put more into perspective of what we have been going through and more specifically how you can pray for us. I would also like to mention that there are two other families facing the same possibility of losing their boys and they need your prayers as well. Thank you for taking the time to read this and for your prayers, he needs them now more than ever.